February 2012
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I used to love him.
As I look at what I’ve done, the type of life that I’ve lived How many things I pray the Father will forgive One situation involved a young man He was the ocean and I was the sand He stole my heart like a thief in the night Dulled my senses and blurred my sight
I chose the road of passion and pain Sacrificed too much and waited in vain Gave up my power, ceased being queen Addicted to...
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Inevitable
“I’m so happy. I’m ready to move on.”
In that instant, lightning struck her brain.
A sudden flash of uncontrollable thoughts and feelings ignited inside her.
She pictured it all.
The happiness, the love, the comfort…
And then she saw him leaving, the pain, the sadness, the heartbreak.
For the first time in her life, she doubted whether or not she really wanted...
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I often look at him and wonder what his heartbeat sounds like.
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When you're gone.
I dread the day when I run into you. I know it’s near.
I almost don’t want to go anywhere for fear or seeing your face.
You thought I was over you?
Yeah, I am, but that pain….yeah, the one in my heart…. it still hurts sometimes, and I don’t really know how to fix it.
I don’t want to see you.
I don’t want to remember your voice, or how you held me, or...
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He taught me how to love someone more then I love myself.
He taught me how to love myself even when he didn’t.
Tell me, why would I regret a single moment?
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“Allie was in her third year of college when she volunteered as a nurse’s aid. To her, the broken men with shattered bodies were all Noah. Or someone who fought beside him in the jungle or frozen snow swept road.”
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Beyonce.
Music means a lot to me.
It’s helped me in so many ways.
Mostly in dealing with regaining my strength.
Strength as an individual woman.
Watching Beyonce “Live at Roseland” was a defining moment in my life.
Believe it or not.
I cried through most of it.
All alone. Just me and my TV.
Strength no longer was an option, it was a necessity.
I needed to be strong.
While...
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Call me Cliche
I’ve always wanted a boyfriend who would go on a Ferris Wheel with me.
I’ve always wanted a boyfriend who let me wear his shirts.
I’ve always wanted a boyfriend who would go ice skating with me and hold my hand.
I’ve always wanted a boyfriend who would take cute pictures in a photo booth with.
I’ve always wanted a boyfriend who I could make breakfast for....
January 2012
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Our hearts connected by hundreds of tiny little strings.
Trust.
Friendship.
Loyalty.
Understanding.
Respect.
Some stronger then other.
Love.
The strongest of them all. Not a string, but a chain, composed of the strongest material you can find.
Time went by, and slowly everything weakened, but love, it remained strong.
Occasionally one of the strings would snap as we grew farther...
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For Good.
I’ve heard it said That people come into our lives for a reason Bringing something we must learn And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true But I know I’m who I am today Because I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a...
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Me, Myself, and I.
Strength.
Something I’ve struggled with this past year.
Even in the worst of times, I never gave up.
Taking what little strength I had left, and pushing myself to live another day.
Growing stronger and stronger every time I successfully achieved my goal.
Never too proud to accept help.
Sometimes giving in to what made me weak.
Always staying true to what I believed was right.
The...
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Look at the Moon.
“The stars out there were amazing….”
I thought to myself before replying for fear of sounding absolutely ridiculous.
“Every night you were gone…”
I hesitated.
I knew his face so well, and it wasn’t telling me he didn’t want to hear what I had to say.
I continued.
“Every night you were gone, I found myself staring at the moon. It was the...
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Scared.
The awful words I spoke to you are running through my head.
I meant every word. I hate you. I’ve never hated anyone quite this way.
I hate you so much, but I’m so scared.
I’m so scared that something bad will happen while we’re on bad terms, and I won’t get to apologize or make it right.
I’m so scared you won’t make it home one day, and maybe I...
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I Hope It Kills You.
I meant every single word.
It’s been a long time coming, and you deserved it.
Don’t you dare even think about talking to me again.
Because to me, you don’t exist.
I hope it kills you.
I hope it bothers you every single day.
I hope you can’t sleep.
and I hope you feel the same way I did.
I hope it kills you.
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I guess this is goodbye.
I’m finally okay.
I thought it would never happen.
I realized you’ve changed, and I realized I don’t like it.
I realized I’m happier when I’m not trying anymore.
I’m okay with it.
So I guess this is goodbye, for now at least.
No more tears. No more heart ache.
This smile doesn’t depend on you anymore.
Be Careful,
-Brittney
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2011: Things I'll never say
1. I’m in love with you. You know that. Just when I think I’m over you, you come back, and I fall all over again, faster and harder. I’ve known you for almost two years now, and I’ll never get used to my heart skipping a beat every time I see your face. My first love. You’ll always be my first love, and I’ll always be yours. Nothing can change that now.
Most of...
December 2011
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It goes away.
You know that feeling of heartbreak and sadness?…
It goes away.
You know that feeling when you think everything is going to be okay, and you think you’re strong, and you think you don’t love him anymore?…
It goes away.
And then you’re back at square one, and you wish that you’d never met him.
And then…
He goes away.
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GFY
So let me get this straight.
I’m not your friend.
I’m not your girlfriend.
I’m just a girl who you happen to want to make out with.
What does that make me?
A hookup.
I’m not anyone’s hookup.
GFY, honey.
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That one guy
I wanna talk about that one guy…
“There’s always gonna be that one guy who you’ll always have feelings for.”
No, not him.
I wanna talk about that one guy who you call late at night, when the boy you’ll always have feelings for made you cry.
That one guy who’s always there for you and won’t let you cry yourself to sleep.
That one guy who wipes...
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I need to see you.
Why?
Because months and months go by, and I forget just how amazing I used to feel, and then you come around, and I see my reflection in your eyes, and it’s enough to remind me that I used to be happy.
You’re sorry?
I know you are, but sometimes knowing you’re sorry makes it worse.
I wish you didn’t care. Then maybe I would have the motivation to...
“I’ll close my eyes, then I won’t see the love you don’t feel when you’re holding me. Morning will come, and I’ll do what’s right. Just give me till then to give up this fight. And I will give up this fight… ”
“I Can’t Make You Love Me If You Dont”
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Tonight.
Tonight.
She pulled out of the drive way and headed toward his house.
Butterflies. Intense butterflies filled her stomach.
She turned on the radio to calm her down.
“Let’s take it slow, I don’t wanna move too fast. I don’t wanna just make love. I wanna make love last.”
Not tonight.
Not tonight…
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Can't be friends.
Ex Boy Friend - Ex - Boy + Best = Best Friend.
Miles away, He’s still there for me.
“I’m Here”
What? It caught me off guard. I was expecting to be ignored.
Realizing that he never really left.
In Love? no.
Love? yes.
The kind of love that keeps friends together forever.
I can deal with that.
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My biggest problem.
I know it has nothing to do with the way I look.
I don’t wish I was prettier.
I don’t feel like she’s prettier than me.
I don’t hate who I see when I look in the mirror.
What bothers me most is that it has everything to do with who I am.
The way I act.
The way I love.
The way I talk.
The way I’m so emotional.
It has nothing to do with my appearance.
It has...
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Stop reminding me.
We’ve been having the same conversation for over a year now. I never take your advice, because I like the pain I’m in. I’d rather have him break my heart every single day then have to go to sleep knowing I’d never talk to him again. Yes, I know it’s unhealthy, but that’s just the way it is.
Do I get tired of crying myself to sleep every night?
Of course I do....
November 2011
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“The clock never stops, and I hate this damn phone. Some days I wanna run from the place I call home. I guess I’m just needing some danger. Give me three days in bed with a stranger.”
She’s right on the edge of becoming the type of person that runs from all her problems. She wants to move away, she wants to cut her hair, she wants to meet someone different, and she never...
And so its official, she’s spent a whole year crying over him
“Time heals all.”
She hates that phrase. She wishes it were more specific.
How long does she have to wait for time to kick in and start healing things?
Nothing really ever changes.
Everyday I wake up, close my eyes, and tell myself,
“He’s not your boyfriend.”
Time Travel.
Someone once told me,
“You live so much in the past and the future that you forget about the present.”
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Wish you were here.
Currently listening to Take Care.
Currently wishing you were here.
You’regonnalovethis.
“Make the most out of tonight and worry bout it all tomorrow.”
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I don't like her.
It’s not because:
She’s with you and I’m not.
I’m jealous.
I know you can do better.
I think she’s fake.
You left me for her.
It’s because:
She hurt you, and that makes me the angriest person in the world.