January 2012
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2011: Things I'll never say
1. I’m in love with you. You know that. Just when I think I’m over you, you come back, and I fall all over again, faster and harder. I’ve known you for almost two years now, and I’ll never get used to my heart skipping a beat every time I see your face. My first love. You’ll always be my first love, and I’ll always be yours. Nothing can change that now.
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December 2011
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It goes away.
You know that feeling of heartbreak and sadness?…
It goes away.
You know that feeling when you think everything is going to be okay, and you think you’re strong, and you think you don’t love him anymore?…
It goes away.
And then you’re back at square one, and you wish that you’d never met him.
And then…
He goes away.
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GFY
So let me get this straight.
I’m not your friend.
I’m not your girlfriend.
I’m just a girl who you happen to want to make out with.
What does that make me?
A hookup.
I’m not anyone’s hookup.
GFY, honey.
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That one guy
I wanna talk about that one guy…
“There’s always gonna be that one guy who you’ll always have feelings for.”
No, not him.
I wanna talk about that one guy who you call late at night, when the boy you’ll always have feelings for made you cry.
That one guy who’s always there for you and won’t let you cry yourself to sleep.
That one guy who wipes...
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I need to see you.
Why?
Because months and months go by, and I forget just how amazing I used to feel, and then you come around, and I see my reflection in your eyes, and it’s enough to remind me that I used to be happy.
You’re sorry?
I know you are, but sometimes knowing you’re sorry makes it worse.
I wish you didn’t care. Then maybe I would have the motivation to...
“I’ll close my eyes, then I won’t see the love you don’t feel when you’re holding me. Morning will come, and I’ll do what’s right. Just give me till then to give up this fight. And I will give up this fight… ”
“I Can’t Make You Love Me If You Dont”
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Tonight.
Tonight.
She pulled out of the drive way and headed toward his house.
Butterflies. Intense butterflies filled her stomach.
She turned on the radio to calm her down.
“Let’s take it slow, I don’t wanna move too fast. I don’t wanna just make love. I wanna make love last.”
Not tonight.
Not tonight…
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Can't be friends.
Ex Boy Friend - Ex - Boy + Best = Best Friend.
Miles away, He’s still there for me.
“I’m Here”
What? It caught me off guard. I was expecting to be ignored.
Realizing that he never really left.
In Love? no.
Love? yes.
The kind of love that keeps friends together forever.
I can deal with that.
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My biggest problem.
I know it has nothing to do with the way I look.
I don’t wish I was prettier.
I don’t feel like she’s prettier than me.
I don’t hate who I see when I look in the mirror.
What bothers me most is that it has everything to do with who I am.
The way I act.
The way I love.
The way I talk.
The way I’m so emotional.
It has nothing to do with my appearance.
It has...
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Stop reminding me.
We’ve been having the same conversation for over a year now. I never take your advice, because I like the pain I’m in. I’d rather have him break my heart every single day then have to go to sleep knowing I’d never talk to him again. Yes, I know it’s unhealthy, but that’s just the way it is.
Do I get tired of crying myself to sleep every night?
Of course I do....